Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Avoiding ???
maybe the only word to describe what i had been doing so far .
Avoid talking to her ?
Avoid quarrelling with my father over small matters ??
Avoid the question (whether to take motor or car liscense )?
Avoid the topic on quitting smoking ???
Avoid going to school ,which remind me of tons and tons of memories ???
Avoid going out often ,so that i can save up some money ???
Avoid using my temper when i feel irritated ?
Avoid doing the same mistake over and over again ?
What more to avoid ><
The feeling is seriously so FUCK UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So much things to figure out on solution yet so freaking little time !!!!
Raj has been encouraging me to talk to her ,but i just cannot bring myself to do that.
Thats why i said i fail in my life ,cause i do things that will upset myself.
i had done so much wrong things ,but i dun feel sry for any them .
Because i only feel sry to myself for being sure a loser in making the correct decision FOR MYSELF.
What much more to say to a BLOODY LOSER like me ???
FAILURE???or maybe i dun even suit the word fail ???
(12:24 AM)