Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood
All the ones around me
I cared for and loved
Building up inside of me
A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free
Don't mourn for me

Alistair Sim
TwenTEEN on 26th Nov 2010
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DISAPPOINTED!!!!
DISAPPOINTED!!!!!
DISAPPOINTED!!!!!!

Only thing to describe myself now -.-


Things dun seems to be changing ....LIFE STILL SUCKS!!!!!



WHAT MORE CAN I DO....To HELP MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!


SCREW LIFE
FUCK IT BIG TIME!!!!



Things that happen everyday ,are somehow like too common to be notice.

Thing like sunrise and sun set,did you guys doubt to tell the diff when you see them .

People tell me "dawn" symbolize the start of every brand new day ,while "dusk" represent to end of the day but can u all tell the DIFF between the both of them.
Maybe you do?

But

For me they are just the same -.-

just mark another day of me wasting time on this world ...shag

Sunrise

Sunset



CNY EVE!!!!


But


WHERE's the CNY mood -.- DAME IT!!!!!



21st jan 09

I think that the time has call upon me to let go ,so is time for me to let go and say "GOOD BYE" bah .

Actually,My plan was to be in class for the reminding 3 days ,but last min i made the decision to bid a early farewell , to my beloved W16J classmates .SRY to all, i had disappointed you guys with my empty promises once again.


For so long , i thought i had been doing well by not doing anything .I thought i wouldn be giving her any pressure by doing it
Eventually i was wrong,Maybe by letting go early would be a great relieve to her .

To Raj ,
indeed my good fren + brother in W16J.
Thx bro,i appreciated everything that you tell me about it in the toilet.i wouldn had know it if you didn tell me .THX!

For this , i had no one to blame but myself .To make the Wrong decison and move to made me end up in such situation (learn from it shi jie ) .

For now i think , time is everything i need .Whether it take me 2 mths , 2 years .i will try to forget everything that had happen this sem and maybe just leaving this blog as the only memories left .

OF COURSE , i wun wanna forget to thx those who helped me last year during my birthday .
Ira ,Raj , Shally jie jie , ahmad , shijie , kaiyoung .Sry to put all the effort you guys put in to help me into waste.



THE TIME IS HERE ~~~~~~~~~~~

3 MORE DAYS AND BYEBYE TO W16J

TIME HAS CALL UPON ME TO LET GO ....SO I GUESS IS TIME FOR ME TO SAY GOOD BYE ??

Lets put our last 3 days in W16J into good use .

Let it be a happy ending for our class in the 2nd semester.



Avoiding ???

maybe the only word to describe what i had been doing so far .

Avoid talking to her ?
Avoid quarrelling with my father over small matters ??
Avoid the question (whether to take motor or car liscense )?
Avoid the topic on quitting smoking ???
Avoid going to school ,which remind me of tons and tons of memories ???
Avoid going out often ,so that i can save up some money ???
Avoid using my temper when i feel irritated ?
Avoid doing the same mistake over and over again ?



What more to avoid ><

The feeling is seriously so FUCK UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So much things to figure out on solution yet so freaking little time !!!!

Raj has been encouraging me to talk to her ,but i just cannot bring myself to do that.

Thats why i said i fail in my life ,cause i do things that will upset myself.

i had done so much wrong things ,but i dun feel sry for any them .
Because i only feel sry to myself for being sure a loser in making the correct decision FOR MYSELF.

What much more to say to a BLOODY LOSER like me ???

FAILURE???or maybe i dun even suit the word fail ???



Anyone know


Whats the most poisonous things to be feared from all human beings ???

Venom from a king cobra???

or

Poisonous stings from spiders???

Or maybe

The most poisonous plants on earth ???



The answer of it is LOVE.

When things like “love at first sight “, “crush “starts. Beware you are being poison by the most dangerous poison of all time “LOVE”.
When you were scare of making a wrong movement which will lead you into terrible ending ?
This is where your mind comes in and add in a little fantasy ,forcing you to make a move so that life can move on .
God is fair to all human beings .So when you made a move , you will have a 50-50 chance to cure from this most deadly poison .
If you get cured (good for you ) ,you will den get to experience the best part of your life .
BUT
If you fail … Welcome to the club, and we will share the pain tgt!!!

Although almost all poison had anti venom or antidote to cure you but there is non for “LOVE”.
The most scary part of this poison is that, it kills you over time making you struggling your way through to survive .
Many people said “TIME’ is the best cure for this most deadly poison on earth
But
It is totally bullshit, just another excuse to make to cover up how pain you are .We all know scars sometimes dun show , and wounds some times cannot be cured over time .Many people will choose to be like me ,EMO your way through hoping miracles will happen .But let me tell you one thing ,EMO is not about crying over it ,but it is about you reflecting how stupid you had become to do stupid things like this over and over again !!!.
Although it is stupid to get poison over and over again .But why do all human beings still willing to leave themselves vulnerable to this deadly poison .Because they all still believe god is always fair ,there will always be times when you will be the one cured and enjoy through you best part of your life !



NEW YEAR
NEW BLOG
NEW START
NEW LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!



WOoohoooo made some slight changes with the help of manda !!!!



Do spot the difference and give me comments on my new blog skin !!!!



i had been wondering , since it is a new year....
is it time for me to let go ????
Considering the fact that,whether i let go anot wun make much difference to you .But the only thing i do know is by letting go it will just bring me nothing but MORE PAIN ,i may look like a flirt to all ppl but i am sure faithful to the one i truly love .or we shall make it , "FATE FOOl" as i am just waiting like a fool in my fantasy dreams hoping that i will wake up with happy and sweet ending ???
是时候方手了吗？？？？？？？




How i just wish that times can go back to back then , when nth happen between us ????



WoooHoooo...
First post with my NEW BLOG SKIN....THX MANDA!!!!!!!




today PONTAN SCH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Accompany mummy go take money ...in my 18 years of life...nvr seens so much money lor -.-
<<<< only part of it lor -.-


Den went to dye my hair ...actually wanted it to be red ...end up it turn out to look like orange WTF....i spend my entire day doing nth meaning ful....actually should had went to sch today XD but just so reluctant to go because it is MATHS -.-
Look so red when waiting lor




So disappointing when it come out -.-






Sunrise LOL

Fish on

Fish on but line broken =.=


One word to say.


SINGAPORE NIGHT FISHING TOTAL CMI !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! At labrador park.

or we can just say ,singapore's fish is the same as singaporean .NIAO =.=

Never even think of trying at this dame area whether is it day or night.

started around 2.30after we change destination from marina south to labrador park.

By 4 am ,fish start to tackle our rods ,and i manage to caught a fish which is about reaching 500g =.=

And the entire night long till morning were tackle from fishes (eatting the bait ) and crabs cuting our hook =.= Shag sia....


i gonna change my entire set of FISHING equipment SOON dame it !!!



1 weeks ending soon ...unbelievable 2morrow is friday already.

which means i only had 2 weeks and 1 day left with W16J.Sure gonna miss the times that we had together.
This 1 week,i had been thinking through whether i should continue my study in RP.Currently still deciding ,GOD KNOWS WHAT WILL HAPPEN NXT !
People ask me , which class do i love more ...sem 1 or sem 2 ???

but my answer will be BOTH,in SEM 1(W34D) i had tons of good frens in it .Khai(babi),saz ,farah, cy,kino, +++ many more.

But For W16J it will sure leave me with more memories of it .We have Raj ,SJ,KY,Shally jie jie , and alot more .OF course you know who i am talking about .
Today , was wondering in class
If I had to live my life without you near me what is gonna happen?? i seriously dunno what will happen to me o.0
Maybe same thing to cheat myself again ????
time will cure everything ???
But actually , i know it myself ,this things is not in this status mostly is because of me .
i cause all this shit to happen in class,ruin-ing my happy memories in W16J and left it in emo-ness + sad-ness ?
besides that i wasted all my classmates effort ????
Thats why today during lesson
i suddenly just feels that , i am not sorry for anyone in this world ,but just myself
If i had faced the fact since my birthday last year,things wun turn out to be like this.
My Life is kind of funny sometimes,you will feel very happy when u do something that make u proud ,but when things start to happen or maybe we can say cock up i will just keep hiding and hiding and hiding ....GOD KNOWS WHAT I WANT!!!!
Actually i dun even know what i want myself



SERIOUSLY....now



I DON'T even give a FUCK ABOUT ANYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Not only for now....BUT FOREVER not GONNA CARE ABOUT IT


DAME IT!!!!!



END of holidays

BULLSHIT man...3 weeks of holiday just end at an blink of an eye....



BUT the greatest bullshit on life is that...Holiday is starting once again (in 3 weeks time )

Which means i only had 15 more days to be in W16J,15 more days to be with my good classmates .Raj(40 year old virgin),shijie (faithful boy (fate fool)),kaiyoung ( kp kia ).
And of course you all know who la.

in 3 weeks what more can i do , NTH ,NTH n Purely NTH.

There is nth i could do much more in just 3 weeks of times.Although the Raj(virgin boy) Was talk to me today Asking me to talk .But where to get the topic ??even though i got the topic ... the convo just last 1 min ? so where is point .
No point = no convo= end off topic =.=

So i decided to wait like a retard ,doing nth to make my life more meaning ful in class.

So just leave me be .

I know myself,i am gonna just wait and wait and wait .Doing nth ,hoping miricles to happen ones again like the previous few times o.0.


Life always had changes as you goes along .

But

There will nvr be changes in my life .End of story .BYEBYE =.=



CONFUSE CONFUSE CONFUSE ....i seriously dunno what i want myself....


FUCK man....THIS feeling,is seriously FUCK UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i HATE IT!!!!!HATE IT!!!! HATE IT!!!

BEING CONFUSE IN LIFE IS NEVER GOOD!!!!!