Wednesday, December 31, 2008
2nd week of holiday
Life is terrible for me this holiday
Besides going out and spend money ,i actually did nth much for the holiday which is meaning-ful.
3 thing that i had done during the holiday =.=
1st : Drink ,Sleep &eat
2nd : Emo-ing
3rd : Smoking
some times i really find myself a failure in life .
27th dex 08
W16J class bbq ,started with only me and raj =.=.Although the bbq was kind of like terrible.The spooky ride was the fun 1(thx to ahmad ),but i just couldn't bring myself to be as high as usual.
28 dec 08
Slept through haft of the day .Sadly i couldn get much sleep in the night,was thinking of the problems that has been trouble-ing me for the whole holiday.
29th dec 08
Went for w34D bbq.Although only a few turn up but we did enjoy ourself .Wish to apologize here for EMO-ing haft way through the bbq SRY!.Just couldn do anything to help it !
This holiday , I feel seriously a fuking failure and a burden in life =.= .
First , i did something during the holiday which made me suffer from insomia and stress ness.
2nd ,i smoke my way through this holiday just to some how relieve "stress".Now is like part of me , when i just suddenly cannot figure out solution to the problems .i will just smoke it out without hesitating.
3rd,i make myself a promise,which is to figure out a solution when this holiday come to an end .As time pass ,i feel so fail =.= 2 weeks of time and i am still stuck at point 1 ,no solution to anything !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
When life get hopeless,Humans will start to think of other solution to make it "look better" or we can say to "feel better ".
i actually believe that,by cutting hair(changing hairstyle)will help in changing my luck.
Sometimes , in life just one wrong step is fatal enough to get you killed.So seriously think twice before you do anything .
(1:50 AM)