Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Here comes the NEW YEAR ...BUT where's the mood !!!!
GONE,MISSING or LOST!
Whats the mood to invite the YEAR 2009 now
EMO! WTF WTF WTF
WTH is wrong with me seriously =.=,
shagness within me ~~~~
i don't even know it myself.Or maybe is i do not wanna know it .
People say ,new year new start.When a new year come everything start anew.
But what more can i expect for the new year 2009.When i had to EMO my way through the last day of 2008.
Lastly
Happy new year every one !!
(9:21 PM)
2nd week of holiday
Life is terrible for me this holiday
Besides going out and spend money ,i actually did nth much for the holiday which is meaning-ful.
3 thing that i had done during the holiday =.=
1st : Drink ,Sleep &eat
2nd : Emo-ing
3rd : Smoking
some times i really find myself a failure in life .
27th dex 08
W16J class bbq ,started with only me and raj =.=.Although the bbq was kind of like terrible.The spooky ride was the fun 1(thx to ahmad ),but i just couldn't bring myself to be as high as usual.
28 dec 08
Slept through haft of the day .Sadly i couldn get much sleep in the night,was thinking of the problems that has been trouble-ing me for the whole holiday.
29th dec 08
Went for w34D bbq.Although only a few turn up but we did enjoy ourself .Wish to apologize here for EMO-ing haft way through the bbq SRY!.Just couldn do anything to help it !
This holiday , I feel seriously a fuking failure and a burden in life =.= .
First , i did something during the holiday which made me suffer from insomia and stress ness.
2nd ,i smoke my way through this holiday just to some how relieve "stress".Now is like part of me , when i just suddenly cannot figure out solution to the problems .i will just smoke it out without hesitating.
3rd,i make myself a promise,which is to figure out a solution when this holiday come to an end .As time pass ,i feel so fail =.= 2 weeks of time and i am still stuck at point 1 ,no solution to anything !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
When life get hopeless,Humans will start to think of other solution to make it "look better" or we can say to "feel better ".
i actually believe that,by cutting hair(changing hairstyle)will help in changing my luck.
Sometimes , in life just one wrong step is fatal enough to get you killed.So seriously think twice before you do anything .
(1:50 AM)
Friday, December 26, 2008
A good start and a terrible ending ...many up and downs ,good news and bad news ,good things and bad things.
But most of the time , the memories of sec sch life do bring me high up to the maximum.People like Bryan,nich, andrew and clarence MY BROTHERS!!!and all our sec sch sec 5 NA people .Going out with them ,let me have the feeling that i am still in sec sch life(stressfree ).Everyday stress only about after school go where , cigg and scard to be bored.
Since the end of the year is coming , let me just conclude it bah,Life after N & O Lvl ,had let us expereince the destrutivness of changes in life .First ,frens start to leave school going to other alternatives to continue their education.Den they start to enter army 1 by 1 ,which allow them to learn more thing in NS.Haiis What more to come man !!!!The changes are seriously some time so fast that it is kind of like SCARY!
For me ,Life is terrible for me in poly life,Struggling hard to adapt to the new learning environment.but sadly , i fail in life, studys and now i fail in LOVE.In fact i can conclude that i almost fail in everything =.=
Lets just hope the end of the year 2008 will bring all the unhappiness away from my life to let me start everything anew !!!
BTW Merry Christmas to all ~~~
(1:49 AM)
Monday, December 22, 2008
CHRISTMAS IS COMING !!!!!!
For the past 1 week :
so many thing had happen ...
1)Went to zouk out with nich, andrew and a number of people
2)went out with bryan and andrew
3)webcam with my darling LOL
4)went to sign job contract with bryan and nich
and alot more things to be listed
i may seems normal,smiling and joking around as usual.
but i can say i am a total failure ,here i am trying not to think,talk and care about it.
But almost everything i do , it will remind me of you .
People are asking me , what present i want for christmas.
but the present i want will never be given by any of them .
Cause all i want is you !
people has been telling me time can heal everything but
to me
IN LIFE , NOT ALL SCARS ARE SHOWN ,NOT ALL WOUNDS CURE
time maybe the best thing to numb the pain ,but it will nvr cure it !
MERRY CHRISTMAS IN ADVANCE ALL!!!
(12:13 AM)
Friday, December 12, 2008
Times have pass...sry saz ...things hasn't change much .
Lots of prob to stress about recently,once again turn me back to the emo me .I had just eaten my very own promise to change.So DISAPPOINTED with myself!Looking at the thing i had broken
1.)i promise to talk to her
2.)i promise never to emo again
3.)i promise to be back myself
4.) i promise to QUIT smoking( which i totally fail ,but i will still try my best !)
5.)i promise to cut down on drinking
This few nights out in the streets, i had begin to think of things that i had done to drive the situation to what we are at now .
I’m sitting there thinking about what is going on.
I really don’t understand what is going on.
All I know is that I don’t want to lose her.
She is the only one I want to be with.
When I’m with her I have this warm feeling.
I never want to let go of her.
I don’t want to lose her.
When she’s not here my days are not good,
but when she is here my days are the best.
I love her so much that words could never say it.
All I know is that I just don’t want to lose my baby girl
Seriously is it that hard ?
(7:22 PM)
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Emo-ing is what i have been doing for the past few months,weeksand days .It has already become part of me ,in my life .But today i will swear that , the HYPER me will be back ..MARK MY WORDS!!!I will pesevere till the very end !!!!!!!I WILL BE BACK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
After talking to saz ...i feel so much better.I will remember what she tell me for life !!!!
Words that saz told me ...and i will remember for life !!!!
Love Me Or Hate Me(saz) says:
u noe why pple don never ChanGe ?
Love Me Or Hate Me(saz) says:
because thEy are scared theY CAnt adapt to new environment
Love Me Or Hate Me(saz) says:
alist.. nothing in life is easy
Love Me Or Hate Me(saz) says:
overcome it
Love Me Or Hate Me(saz) says:
you caNt stay like dis forever
Love Me Or Hate Me(saz) says:
its time to make a move
Love Me Or Hate Me(saz) says:
because its ur choIce that determines ur destiny not cHance
Love Me Or Hate Me(saz) says:
bear tat in mind ok
OMG saz u rocks my life(:.........
(10:22 PM)
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Check this out
Nice???
Times fly so fast that i feel it is kind of scary...At a blink of an eye ,year 1 is almost over=.= thats like kind of too fast lah.
But i still miss my secondary school time the most !!!!!
Cause it is stress free ,no need to stress of this and stress of that .
Friday night ,suddenly change my mind notto go out .
Decided to emo myself to think of things that had happen so far.Maybe from start it is always a wrong to start this thing.
but WRONG start is still kind of ok with me ... but the sad things is that it is gonna end with a sad ending... woooo so dramaticright ?.
Some times in life,to make the right decision for the right choice is tough...maybe the time has call upon me to let go ?Maybe i should consider it ?some time in life to let go it hurts.but if you dun let go it hurts more.
Should i follow the call to let go ? or should i persevere till the very end ????
(12:43 AM)
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUI SHAN & HAN YONG!!!!!!!!
Pon tan partial for a PURPOSE to day ,to accomapany my hao mei mei (hui shan )as it is her birthday XD
At night ,We went place hunting for the perfect place to slack .First time in my life ,i made a right choice to believe JJ .The place is super excellent for a guy like me to go EMo everyday .
Wooo the place is seriously dame nice , Super relaxing .
3 of us on the bus
Em studio entrance !!!
Outside view of EM!!!!
Our drinks !!!
(11:35 PM)